Title: The Red Roses are... Malicious
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 21. Malice(30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none.
Word Count :467
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless >> Disappointed >> Grateful >>Envious >> Enraged>>Indignated >> Fearful >> Grieving >> Apathy >> Desperate>> Longing >> Compassionated >> Shameful>> Confident >> Rapture >> Malice >> Hatred




21. Malice

I didn’t wanted to wake up, but the moment I felt your warmth leaving the bed, I knew I couldn’t sleep anymore. You are the one that makes me feel safe, and I don’t dare to lat my dreams flow over me without you at my side. Bilking a couple of times I confirmed what I’ve felt. The bed was empty besides for my naked form laying lazily on it. I brought my hands to my face in an attempt to block the sun that try hard to reach me over the window curtains. With a soft groan I let go of the morning sleep and start to make my way out of the bed, slight dazed from the contentment on my heart.

I look over my room trying to find me some clothes, softly feeling the delicious smell that’s probably you, making us breakfast. I shake my head a little, letting an amused smile crept over my face, looking for my cloths once again, just to be startled by a shrill sound. I ran to my nightstand quickly pushing the button of the alarm clock off, and laughing a little over my own reaction, since the suddenness of the sound really startled me. I try to glare at the digital numbers, but something else catch my attention. A framed portrait. I’ve already forgotten it still there. Catching it on my hands and fierce glaring at his image in it I really can’t recall why it’s not in the garbage, but here. I felt my grip tighten, and my mind couldn’t help but conjure pleasure horrid images of him. How good it would be if he was plainly dead, just the way I’ve wished so many times before, but this time it didn’t came with the apprehension that I used to feel, the wish for his to vanish was alone, no other feeling like need or jealousy were present, and as disturbing as it can be, I really felt good for it.

On that same moment I realized that maybe, the way that I felt that good was because now I’m free. Free from his image, free from anything concerned to him. I was never so proud at myself than the moment I contemplate it. I’ve wanted so badly for the freedom, and now, thanks to Kai I have it. I know for sure that was Kai the key that pulled me out of my cage, showing me that for sometime now I was the only one keeping myself inside.

I gently take the photo away from the frame, let the frame hanging on the table and letting go of the picture on the trash bin. I don’t need it anymore. Not to feel complete, not to feel anger, and surely not to stay alive.





Title: The Red Roses are... Hating
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 16. Hatred(30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none.
Word Count :367
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless >> Disappointed >> Grateful >>Envious >> Enraged>>Indignated >> Fearful >> Grieving >> Apathy >> Desperate>> Longing >> Compassionated >> Shameful>> Confident >> Rapture >> Malice >> Hatred



16. Hatred

I felt complete when I opened my eyes, the light rays of sun tricking me awake. I didn’t even take notice of the time flashing in your nightstand clock, the only thing capturing me was the peaceful look on your face while you sleep contently on my chest. I let my finger caress your hair softly, hearing you mumble something in your slumber. I let go of you and gently got myself out of the bed, all the while trying my best not to wake you. I give your covered body one last look before trying to find my clothes, since they were the only ones I have right now. The mess in your bedroom was making difficult to me to spot my pants, my shirt already safe on my left hand. I left a soft chuckle, sitting myself on the edge of the bed, looking to you and the way that you’ve managed to kick away the covers I’ve carefully pulled over us last night. You lay there fully exposed, softly snoring, your hair all over your pillow, laying on your stomach, the scarred milk skin of your back shining lightly over the sun rays. I let my hands wander over your backs gently tracing the marks that he left in your body. I can’t help but wish he had never born, asking myself how he could have done this to you.

I let a sigh, realizing that no matter how much I desire that he would never ever been, things won’t change. I’m not the one that needs to let go, and for some minutes I was glad for it. I doubt that I could ever suppress my abomination for him. I hear you mumble something again, and this time I understands the groggy words that left your lips.

- Hn.. Kai… sleep….more…

I giggle a little trying to make no sound at all an take my hands away from your backs. Your cute sleepy tune granting you some more sleep as I make my way out of the bedroom. My shirt on my left hand and my pants barely zipped, hanging on my hips.

- Hum.. Let’s see… What’s Ruki’s favorite Breakfast?





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4 more to go ^.^
God this new avatar was hell to make, I’ve never used so many layers on an avatar XD~~~~~

I don’t know why but recently ever since I mentioned Ruki’s ex-boyfriend Kyo’s picture came to me u.u”
His boyfriend weren’t supposed to have a face, less a name, not for me and not for any readers. I’m betraying myself. I guess it’s because the kyoxruki story I’ve been writing. Anyway, it’s creepy. ^.~

*.* I didi it. I've learned how to customize s2 XD~~~I made my new layout, I'm so happy XD~~~~
I really didn't wanted to just use the header that I've made as my wallpaper. He weren't made for it XD~~

still can someone tell me how to make the cut's page show the layout ? because my main page is fine, but once you read (click on) the cuts I got the traditional Lj style. How can I Change it ? Nevermind. Already fixed XD.