Title: The Red Roses are... Distressed.
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 10. Distress(30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none,
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless



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10 . Distress
Ruki's POV

When I woke up I knew that nothing could've made me more happy on that minute. Your face was inches apart from mine, your lips parted, letting a soft breath past them, your eyes closed in a peaceful slumber, the only thing that defied that pretty picture were a single dry tear over your cheek. On that moment I knew that I had let your name spill from my lips during last night nightmare. I'm so used to the felling that is invading me now. This Mourning feeling to not know what to do, to feel powerless over your own life. I've never saw you cry, and I surely didn't desired that, I would do everything to be the only one shredding tears, I'm used to it by now.

I want to fell you, stroke your arms that hold me from my waist, but I don't have the courage to do it. The memories of my last night dream making me shake with a unmoving fear. He's not here anymore, but still I fell like he's holding tight the threads of my life, and that's what I'm scared.

I hear you mumble something and get closer to me, cradling you face on my neck, like pleading for the morning to not arrive, and I have to say, that it was the more cute act that I've always seen. I feel safe here, but at the same time, on the moment I close my eyes, I'm shaking of terror. How can it be ? I get my hand to entwine with your over my stomach, almost in an attempt for you to reassure me, even in your sleep. No matter how much content I am now, I still feel lost.

I hear your voice again, now muffled by my skin, and feel you little kisses over my neck. I let myself smile and then turn my head to look at you. You keep you eyes closed, even if I know that you're awake, and just lay there, planting lovely kisses on my skin, holding me a little more tight, and making soothing movements over my stomach with you thumbs. No matter what dreams can plague me, or how much I still shake from the memories of him, one thing I'm certain, I can get used to awake by you and your soft caress, to be cradled on your embrace like nothing can harm me, neither him, neither myself, even if it's not true.










Title: The Red Roses are... Restless
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 26. Restlessness(30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: none,
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love >> Calm >> Excited>> Lustful >> Pitying >> Distressed >> Restless



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26# Restlessness
Ruki's POV

Nothing could make me stay still. I checked everything at least five times now. You said that we should have something especial for dinner, as to celebrate the bonds that were finally set between us, that we should go out on a dinner date since we had to be at the studio today, but I argued that it would be better to just stay at home, only us, it would be more fitting for the occasion, and you didn't ever doubted me.

When you said that you were going to stay at the company to settle some things I realized that it was the perfect chance for a little try, so giving you a good bye kiss I rushed home to put up with my silly idea. I've found this book at your house on the last time I was there an though that maybe I could make us some simple dinner. It would have a lot more meaning than to order some nameless take out.

I have to admit that I was rather impressed with myself when I realized that I had made it. Looking over the kitchen again, I still can't believe that the meal was ready and the mess weren't that bad. I hope the food is edible though. It smells nice and look good, but you can never know right ? It's not the first time that I got adventurous at the kitchen, but certainly is the first time that I'm cooking from someone else, and nothing making a lame ramen to share alone or with Reita. I can't stop myself to be proud. I had made it, and it wasn't even that hard.

With a big smile plastered on my face, I got to work of doing the table, quickly putting g everything in the way that my mind exclaimed 'perfect', and heavily sitting on the couch, anxious waiting to hear Kai's key lock. Without much what to do in face to suppress the anxiety, I just try to call a Tv entertained afternoon, but as much as I knew that was still early I couldn't focus. No position seemed comfortable, and I kept shaking my feet or patting my finger on the armrest of the couch. When the clock had past 15 minutes since I've finished the meal, I already had rearranged the table contents seven times, trying to busy myself without even noticing.

Even my attempt to write got stucked when I realized that over one sentence that I've written, I've already chewed the entire pencil, the doodle on my sheet were almost everywhere, and i couldn't stop to shuffle with my rings. God, I looked like a teenager girl on her first date, and I surely didn't like that. I almost jumped out when the phone rang, the shrill tune making me aware of the things out of my little world.

When I heard your voice through the speaker, I felt myself smiling like the dork that I used to be, just know realizing how much I already misses you. I was shake awake from my daydreaming though when you've said the reasonof the call. You were going to be late, since our deadline seemed to be approaching, and we didn't even start the recording. I couldn't help, but to let my smile fall, hearing you saying how sorry you ere, and that I should just eat something by myself, and that you were coming to my house latter, to make sure I was fine. I was happy that you wanted to come here, and not go back to your own house, but I definitely refuse myself to eat without you. Without telling you that, only promising to grab something to dinner, I hear your good bye, and plopped myself in the couch, still waiting for you to come, the Television so long forgotten, and the table cautiously holding the plates, glasses ans wine that i was sure we would share tonight, no matter how late.


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20 more.... hope I do it.