Title: The Red Roses are... in Love.
Author: warumono_girl
Band/Pairing: KaixRuki (Gazette)
Theme: 19. Love (30emotions)
Rating: PG
Warnings: high sugar tax, besides my English
Word Count: 776
Summary: Feelings shouldn't be kept locked on our hearts, by more than one reason.
Anxious >> Surprised >> Bewildered >> in Love
Comments are love, and critic are romance, so, critic wanted :)




19. Love

Kai P.O.V.

On the same moment that I saw his body passing trough that door I knew I had to go over him. I couldn't let him leave without saying what should have said to start with, and with no more than a second I was at the parking lot, key in hand, sliding into the seat of my car. I know that he'll probably just run to his house, so I need to get there first. I barely see the cars over the street and I more feel than saw the pouring rain when I run over the front of his apartment block to his place at the seventh floor.

On the hallway I realized that he were not there yet and then, calming myself a little I looked trough my bag in a search for the copy of his keys that I hold together with the copy of everyone's houses. It didn't give me so much trouble since I always put it on a easy access, not exactly for moments like these, but for emergencies nonetheless. I quickly opened the door and then I just stayed there, looking at the inside of the apartment, noticing that the lights have never been shut off, clearly showing how you just dashed out of here in a hurry to get to me. How stupid I am, I can feel a smile for just now noticing how much I care for you, and how fucked up things got. Wouldn't everything have been easy have I just told you my feelings ? But then, I was too afraid. How can I know that you weren't there just because you needed someone to take his place at your bed ? Trust me to never say the right things at the right moments. I have just started to realize how much of a idiot I have been not even an hour ago when I heard the sound of the elevator. I turned back and saw you, soaked to the bones, looking to me like the third world war was just in front of you.
You looked to me with a scared expression, and right now I didn't know what to do, so I just looked at you, pleading with my eyes for you to come near, and the only reaction that you give me was a unsure and weak 'why?'. I didn't know how to respond, in truth, I didn't fully understand you question, and then, I just did what could, reached to your hand and gently led you to your own living room.

You needed to get warmer and your hair and clothes were soaked. I hesitated a moment, think how wise would be left you alone in this state, but making a better judgment decided that it was safe to let you there for a little while, just enough to go get a towel on your bedroom closet. I turned my backs to you, going over to you bedroom, barely registering how I managed to find the towel, and before I could realize I was in front of you, cautiously drying you, rubbing the towel over your soft hair and looking fixed at your angelic face. How fucking pretty you are, even now, with your red puffed sparkling eyes, smooth creamy skin, glistering red lips, everything just too perfect, and I only wanted to hold you tight and never let go.

I feel you grip one of my hands, taking me away from my trance, and when I looked at you the pleading in your eyes were some akin of a child that didn't know why were being scolded, way to cute and at the same time very heart shattering. I couldn't do much more than just smile.
Without much thought I just hold you tight against me, feeling your soaked body against mine almost made me melt right away, I wanted too much to just kiss you right know, but my mistake earlier advised me against it and I just pulled away to look into yours eyes. I knew something needed to be said and so did you, but I could still sense that you were afraid of the things that would be said, and then I just wanted to hold you some more to assure you that everything would be fine.

I toke both of your hands in mine, and in a slow movement leveled myself at your ear, and with a soft voice I just spilled what should have been said since the beginner of the night.

- You don't need to cry, Ru-chan. I love you, no matter what, and I've never wanted you to be hurt.